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Invisible Tattoos

Lauren Williams, Five Islands Press, 2000.

Lauren Williams, a born-and-bred Melburnian, has been in Melbourne's poetry scene for more than twenty years.  One of her long-cultivated poetic trademarks is the combination of cynicism and hopeful desperation that confuses and complicates contemporary relationships. 

Bad Love Poems was a stellar example of this.  Poems like On Being Ditched By A Bastard, The Bullshit of Love and You’re Out Before You Realise It's All Wrong etch into the mind her ability to use that cynicism and hopeful desperation to convey feelings of warmth and tenderness, as well as provoke plenty of laughter.  It's the kind of ‘we've all been there’ feeling that makes her poetry forceful but thoroughly accessible

Invisible Tattoos,published in 2000, while not abandoning that tradition, focuses also on other, unexpected topics.  An early, joyful surprise in the volume is The Last Days of Chrome, a tribute to vintage cars written in the language of the sexual glorification of the female form.

This car has known love
One owner and the same mechanic for 25 years
one took her places
the other got inside her
touched her heart
kept it singing
the sweet song of engine joy

and

Original heavy metal
trailing a throaty exhaust
like a movie queen’s backward glance.

Williams's ability to decipher ordinary, everyday topics in poetic language is what makes her distinctly contemporary.  Critics of contemporary poetry say it has no rhythm, and some claim that free verse is merely prose broken up strangely on a page—the opening poem of The Sad Anthropologist,The Mortal Coil, a partly found poem, is an unfortunate example of this—but Invisible Tattoos disputes this notion and challenges the reader to find its internal rhythms.  The collection triumphs in its refreshing accessibility, the beauty of its form and in Williams's decision to expand her repertoire with cognate topics that somehow suit the overall feeling of the collection.

Some poets find their strength in rhyme, some in set stanzas, form and meter, but Williams's strength lies in the very meat of her language, her fresh metaphors, the images and motifs used to convey ideas and feelings that make the reader wonder, 'how did I never think of that before?' Her topics are wide-ranging—the revisitations of her trademark, meditations on Medellin, the frustrations of being childfree, the inability to feel happiness for older men with younger women, and even meeting bodybuilders on a plane. 

As a concept, Invisible Tattoos was inspired by the desire to get a tattoo, says Williams, in the title poem, but hesitating before pain and commitment / I gave it a frame / a poem / a whole book… The pen wrestles the needle / for the ink.  The concept of invisible tattoos is a potent one, but the title poem itself is one of the weakest in the volume, despite the strength of its ending.  Perhaps it begins on a bad note—the first line, If I was to have one / this is the one I would have—contains improper use of the subjunctive and is off-putting, at least for those of a pedantic nature.  Even as a deliberate decision, it manages to be jarring, alerting the reader to be more critical of the poem.  While lines like 'The heart flies /  the wings beat / the burden makes the bearer strong' are technically fine, they can also evoke an unwanted cringe, which is all the more uncomfortable when one distinctly wants the collection to succeed.  It's odd to want to suggest that the title poem might've been tighter, that it, like many a title song on an album, is strangely dissatisfying, but thankfully, it is one of few low points in the volume.

Williams manages to retain freshness even in revisiting the feeling that ricochets throughout the volume—I’m getting too old for this—partly with the use of that old chestnut, hindsight.  Hindsight is the vehicle driving the poem Full Circle, in which Williams muses on another familiar topic—ballet dancers (Ballet Girls appeared in The Sad Anthropologist, for example).  Where earlier poems on ballet had shown Williams as regretful and nostalgic, Full Circle brings her closer to acceptance and relief. 

Thirty years later
able to sit still
in the dress circle   see
the dancers trapped
in ballet’s permanently revolving door
pirouettes drill and corkscrew the floor
limbs windmill  heads roll  torsos sweep
fit to snap  endless laps of the stage
endless circles  they run around
and around  a pack
of fauns and nymphs
who never escaped.

Having read Williams's earlier meditations on ballet, it's easy to detect a tinge of bitterness still contained within that acceptance and relief.  And it becomes easy as a reader not to separate Williams from her poetic narrators.  The personal nature of her recollections and revisitations often see her become synonymous with the voices she creates.

Poems like 40, Love After 40 and What Goes Up speak of subconscious—and sometimes conscious—distress about ageing.  One of the strongest and most recurrent themes in Invisible Tattoos is that distress, manifesting as fear, anxiety, and the driest wit.  When Williams writes that the arses of the young seem filled with helium, where the arses of the old are like parachutes, it is not hard to see that her observations come from a place of very human vanity.  Likewise, Flirting, about an encounter with two young brothers, suggests a kind of wistfulness for youth, and with it, infers a mournful yearning to return to it, because of its ephemeral nature.

Their disbelief is flattering and I float
for a while above the truth
that these lads are only just too old
to be my sons
It’s heady stuff   like a good perfume
you’d be a fool not to enjoy it
daily, if possible, because wear it or not
it evaporates.

Invisible Tattoos can’t help but see age and experience as the ‘tattoos’.  Age may be the more visible kind, but experience is the unknowable imprint that is the focus of this work—this feeling is strongest in The Oldest Man In The Pub.  Where the narrator concedes that the oldest man in the pub is indeed short and ugly, it is not his age that has tattooed him into the happiest in the pub—it is his experience, and this is what makes him profoundly unexpected. 

His pluck cheers everyone up
the pub mascot   something hopeful
despite the odds   outstaying
what doesn’t matter
It’s beautiful just to see him.

While outwardly seeming to meander along the path of occasionally petulant vanity in Invisible Tattoos, Williams has actually created a body of work that gives off a hidden smile of knowing.  It is a work full of hope and cynicism, where the tattoos you receive that people can’t see—unlike the wrinkles on your face, or your parachute-like arse—are the most precious, and worth ‘a whole book.’


Review: Nadine Anderson-Conklin © 2007-2008.